Throwback to 2008…


31.12.2008 – «L’année où tout changea pour le meilleur: Huit ans en arrière, j’ai pris une décision qui changea ma vie, mon coeur et ma direction. Aujourd’hui, je désire partager avec vous ce petit bout de moi à travers ces mots sortis de mon coeur, directement après mon adoption par mon Père céleste.

The year where all has changed for the best: Eight years ago, I have made a decision which has changed my life, my heart and my direction. Today, my desire is to share with you a piece of me through these words who came out of my heart, after my adoption by my Heavenly Father.»



There are many difficult things,

In life nothing is easy.


All these things that are kept in us,

Can only harm us.

We stand against any attention,

And that’s not normal.


It was difficult for me to let go,

Fortunately, I get rid of this crisis.


I need so much to feel His love,

His presence which loosens my heart,

But doubt keeps coming,

And settles down as a sister.


I want to tell it to leave,

Go, leave and do not come back.


And this guilt that spoils me,

This forgiveness that I cannot accept

And yet my conscience tells me:

This reality is your life and you are wasting it.


You can be forgiven,

You’re not condemned to remain damned.


I need help with my problems

Because I want to get out of it

And I want this faith to grow

In my heart, in my life

And let it be my line of sight.


I go out of my bed to live my life

And to show with whom I bind myself.


For love, forgiveness and all these gifts

(That) it is good do not to have to deserve them,

There are so big,

Majestic, wonderful and shared.


Thank you Lord for your kindness,

I still have a hard time to realize.



I was lost but you found me


҉ I was lost but you found me  ҉

You found me

and show me compassion


You found me

and gave me a purpose


You found me

and gave me peace


You found me

and gave me hope


You found me

and gave me water


You found me

and gave me strength


Lord, you found me in such a good time.


You have always found me.


You weren’t listened.


And now never again I have felt alone,

And now your constant presence keep me warm,

And now my heart is full of joy,

And now my soul feel safe,

And now my spirit is open,

And now my eyes really see,

And now I know what is true love.


«For thus says the Lord: Only when Babylon’s seventy years are completed will I visit you, and I will fulfill to you my promise and bring you back to this place. For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope. Then when you call upon me and come and pray to me, I will hear you. When you search for me, you will find me; if you seek me with all your heart, I will let you find me, says the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile.» Jeremiah 29:10-14 NRSV

A toi seul mon Dieu/To you alone my God

Je ne te remercierai jamais assez:
Dans ta persévérance,
Tu m’as trouvé et accepté,
avec mes imperfections et tendances.

Sans toi je ne serais pas là, 
sans toi je n’aurais pas cette force, 
celle d’accepter cet autre moi, 
celui qui a subi ce divorce. 

Tu as su remplir mes manques, 
Me redonner de l’assurance. 
Tu m’as sorti de ma planque, 
et redéfini selon tes exigences.

Oui Seigneur, 
avec toi je suis quelqu’un. 
Je suis devenue ton enfant, ta fille.
Plus un simple pantin, 
Ni juste une guenille. 

Car tu es mon concepteur. 
Tu m’a créé selon tes plans,
Désiré et attendu avec ardeur,
Avec patience et un amour constant. 

Tu n’es pas juste Seigneur, 
Tu es aussi un père et un confident. 
Tu es l’accompagnateur, 
De mes pas et de mon vivant.

Alors à toi mon Dieu protecteur,
Créateur de l’Univers et des étoiles,
A toi mon consolateur, 
Mon Dieu de grâce et de pardon,
A toi, être si proche et sans voile,
Mon unique et saine addiction,
A toi mon Dieu si élégant et éminent,
Mon tout suivra les fils de ta toile,
Car je me dédie, à toi seul mon Dieu, jusqu’au firmament.


I could never thank you enough:
With perseverance,
You found me and accepted me,
With my imperfections and tendencies.

Without you I couldn’t be here,
Without you I couldn’t have this strength,
Which makes me accept this other part of me,
Who suffered the separation.

You knew how to fill the gaps,
And give me confidence,
You helped me get out of my hiding place,
And redefined me in accordance to your will.

Yes Lord,
With you I found myself.
I became your child, your daughter.
No longer a mere puppet,
Or a rag.

Because you are my designer.
You created me with a plan,
Desiring and waiting for me eagerly,
With patience and constant love.

You are not only Lord,
You are also father and confidant.
You are the companion,
In my steps and in my entire life.

So to you, my God, my protector,
Creator of the Universe and stars,
To you my comforter,
My God of grace and forgiveness,
To you who are so close and without disguise,
My one and only healthy addiction,
To you my God so elegant and exalted,
All my person will follow the thread of your canvas,
Because I am dedicated to you, my only God, to the end of time.

By Doria.S.Jeanne – 2015